Sunday, December 21, 2003
百感交集
This afternoon, was supposed to visit grandpa, but didn't go in the end, as just I was abt to take a shower and changed into clothings for outdoors, Mum last min asked me to go with sis next week instead (she went elsewhere today).
Dunno whether were all these fated, cos after i came out from shower, saw an sms from some number i dun recognised, saying that he is passing by Bishan MRT at 6pm and whether if i can pass him the stuff then. At first i dunno who it was, as there are two friends whom i need to pass some stuff to. Later when i called, then realise it was my ex.
To save the trouble of making him meet up again, i quickly did a Chinese New Year card, in case I am unble to send those celebration stuff anymore, though i know it's too early to send one.
when i went online, saw an email send by the chairman, telling members to be responsible . Can see he wasn't in the best of the mood. Suddenly feel so bad. Maybe my previous email asking the leaders to give me the information spurred his email. Guess we are all frustrated.....
Anyway, reached the MRT at 6pm, gave a call to Chairman first. to ask if he had been angry. Guess he seems calmer over he phone then, compared to his email.
Saw him (ex) at a few mins past 6pm. Well, what can I say, from the way he talk, he is still suave as usual. His short hairlength then had grown visibly longer. At least he didn't seem to loose a few more Kgs from his already very thin frame.
One thing that strikes me, suddenly I feel so short beside him, guess it was because that I hadn't seen him for quite sometime and forgotten how tall he was.
现在才真正感觉到,我们之间, 有好大的距离.
虽然他当时就站在我面前, 但似乎离我好遥远.
与他聊几句, 有种"最熟悉的陌生人" 的感觉.
i was actually quite taken aback by his response. He greeted me with a smile and wish me a merry christmas and a happy new year, and ask what 好料(hao3 liao4) ('good stuff') i had for him (refering to the package that i was going to pass him. Given the cold way he had been treating me for pass weeks, I thought he would just said a "Hi", collect the stuff and went home.
But he didn't. he was rather diplomatic and cool when he casually ask me how's my work and said that by the look at me, could see i was stressed. Oh, did he really noticed my tired face, dark eyes circles and the break out of pimples, or was he just fu1 yan3 (dunno why can't find the chinese words in my chinese software) me.
As for me, i was so tired by recent events that i fumbled at my words. When he ask me how much i paid for each SAT test paper, i mention a thousand plus, which was actually my SAT score. then I answered "$2400+ for three papers, $800+ each.", when I should be saying "$240+ for three papers, $80+ each". Pathetic right?
One thing he mentioned which left me puzzled was that when i told him abt my company might not give us (employees) bonuses, he said "Join MediaCorp lah", which was refering to the company he's working for. True, he may had said it jokingly, but given that he had mentioned to me that we are friends now and don't have much to talk when he initiate the breakup, and he had been unwilling to remain much in contact, I dunno why he seems to be fine if i did join the same company as him.
Wouldn't he feel awkward if he was to bump into me as colleagues?
Or he is so suave and poise that if that happens, he can handle that situation with ease?
Just a meeting with him for less than 2 minutes, already left me with so many thoughts........
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