Wednesday, August 31, 2005

我想，我这次真的很累了。
累到连发脾气的力气都没有。

最近 遇到很多不如意的事.
但比起一些朋友，我想我还可以过得去啦！

Take my good friend's for example, her mum was diagnose with cancer and have been receiving chemo treatment at the hospital for a week. It must be hard on my friend, as this news was too sudden. The last time I saw her mum was at my friend's ROM 2 months ago. She was looking so healthy and beaming with joy. Pray that her mum will recover soon and I do hope to see her at my friend's wedding dinner next year.


I noticed the difference in me now. I used to be aggitated when I encounter these back-stabbers' and hypocrites' pretenses. Now, I just remain silent.

Ok lor, if u wanna get me involved in it, I'll heck care.
那些被你的行为所骗的人， 就让他们去误解我吧！
我才不会像你这样，去使用一些卑鄙手段。

Gor was telling me :
" most of the time the evil ppl in office are female.
male r juz domineering or strict.
but female play alot of mindgames .
Those who dun play are the purebreeds who get eaten up.
but then again dats not a good excuse to start acting & plotting like a fugly byotch。"


Yah, that's true. Considering how that old woman plotted to make it seems she is such a hardworking and friendly colleague in front of the other officers. Only those in our department know what she is really like. I wonder how much time she had spent in planning those pretenses.


Anyway , I am just tired of all these. So many things happened at home.... So many things unsettled. Then people thought I am a great planner and expect me to plan something when now I dun even have the mood to. I have high expectations of myself and if i din do it well, I will
be angry with myself.

算了吧！走一步，看一步。


Just another note: I found some comfort while listening to 李圣杰的《远走高飞》 just now. Especially these verses which I can relate to:

"这一个蜚短流长的世界布满虚伪"
"我已经感觉到疲累"
"重新再出发 能不能让这天地不再吵杂".

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