Tuesday, January 03, 2006
2005, 2006
As a norm, I am writing my reflection of my year in 2005 and resolution and wishes for year 2006.
Year 2005 was full of experiences and learning. Many things had happened to me, more problems with my family, especially it comes to monetary concern. I went through a tough period in Mar to May, but what else can I do but to accept all these in silence. However, I think I am rather blessed by heaven as coincidentally, I had won some $ which was just enough to cover their debts.
Sadly, this incident left me scarred. Somehow I learnt not to trust them with $ anymore. It makes me wonder if they raised kids just to get $ out from them.
As for work matters, there is rather some development in my job since I switched job in Feb. Many changes happened in my current job— it wasn't as stable as I expected to be. I had served under 4 supervisors this year. Not that they quited, just that more and more “levels" are created. So it was a challenge to adapt myself to different bosses’ working style. I learnt quite a lot in my current job, from admin to finance to HR matters.
The main problem I faced is a super chao-keng auntie subordinate, who always wanna compete with me when I am not the type who will fight for attention or career advancement. Realised that even when you dun wanna be involved in those games, there are people who will still play games with you. I am not the type who will purposely go to the supervisor’s office, to report on what I am doing. My current supervisor actually told me that he initially wonder what I had been doing until he saw that I prove to be more capable than her. It made me stressed, cos I dun like people to have too much expectations on me, especially whenever the auntie feign ill, I had to cover the duties for her cos he want the work to be down and knew I will do it. And because they all think I got the potential, they seems to be putting me on some “tests” to see if I am able to take up the challenges.
Towards the end of the year, I was given more responsibilities, and took up lots of courses to prepare for my new jobscope this year. So far, I can handle them and see this change as one that could help me to build up my portfolio.
The more serious I am at work, the more kee-siao I will be after work (or in between the breaks at work) to release the stress. A case of “work hard, play hard”. Hahaha. I had been downing myself with latte (oh latte!) recently. Hahaha.
Ok ok, be serious. I had been hanging out with friends after work or during weekends more than usual. Think 2005 is the year where I “toned” the most.
2005 is a year of self-enrichment. I think I did fulfil my 2005 resolution of learning an extra skill. I took up some course (which I dun wanna mention here, shhh cos my family members dunno abt it) and I will still continue taking it until I graduate, hopefully by end of this year, hahaha.
I also took up some card making course and pick up scrapbooking and other card making techniques on my own. I realised that I can totally lost in this “world of mine” when I am focused on making these craftwork. I also tried my hands on photography and digital scrapbooking.
I am also surprised that I still blog regularly, and there were quite a few interesting entries that I had come up with last year (the love theory, talk abt charisma and love letter). Of cos, I am still as reserved as before, even though when I had wanted to keep this blog exclusively for my friends, there are some regular strangers visiting it. (I dunno whether to laugh or to cry).
I dunno how my friends think, but I think I had changed in someway. There are somethings I learnt not to care much abt them , there were times where I preferred to shut myself from the rest instead of seeking comfort from friends.
Speaking of friends, I seem to have friends who are facing lots of problems and ordeals in 2005. That is why I do feel I am rather blessed in a way. Some of them had to face coping with cancer-stricken relatives, some of them faced relationship problems. I had seen quite a few friends ending their long time relationship. But then on the other hand, a few of my friends got married last year. I admitted that they affected me too, somehow friends’ experiences taught me some life lessons.
Oh, forgot to mention that 2005 was also a year full of activities. I helped out in my friend’s ROM, my friends birthday celebration. Attended Muchuan’s New Year 2005, Monster’s bday, Xmas celebration and 2 Muchuan concerts. Of cos one activity, which I was rather proud of is that I had organised a theme birthday gathering. It was fun sourcing partywares and décor and planning the programmes. Wanted to do something grand in my life and of cos I could not have done it with my friends’ help.
There is one 2005’s New Year resolution which I din managed to fulfil—-to further my studies. Talking abt it make me dui4. Arghhh.
Well, I still have plans to further my studies. However I plan to do it in Jan 2007 as I wish to take some non-academic related courses in 2006.
Realised that there is one more thing which I did not fulfil in 2005, but shall I say that is being postponed to this year. Keeping my fingers crossed that I will travel to Taiwan in 2006.
Before I end my reflections of 2005, there is one last thing I wanted to add, Hahaha how can I not mention abt it. For 24 years in my life, I have an idol, nd I got to meet him in person. Yah, “he “ is Li Sheng Jie . ( I know some of u going to faint.)
Such a long entry. I am actually writng on MsWord now and am now at page 3. I really thank my friends for patiently reading till this section. Without further ado, I shall now talk abt my New Year wishes and resolutions.
My 2006 Resolutions:
1) To be more careful, especially at work, where I will have more tasks to do. I hope I won’t miss out important details.
2) Take up a few more courses. I have some in my mind now: tarot cards reading, costume jewellery making, advance card making.
3) To do a scrapbook for my 2005 Bday gathering. Some friends urged me to do it, especially when I had a theme for that.
4) Maintain blogging regularly. Hopefully, I can come with few inspiring entries this year.
5) Pamper myself if I can. Perhaps I shall reward myself with facials, holidays etc, if my budget allows.My wishes for 2006
1) Smooth working environment. My current workplace is much boring than my previous one. Hahaha. But that can't be blame. However as it is going to be fully operational to the public in 2006, I ‘ll be facing more challenges. Hope that I can cope with them.
2) Hope that I will be a good bridesmaid ( or shall I say “jie mei
') on my friend’s wedding. It is my first time being involved as one. There are lots of coordination to be done. Really dunno how it will turn out until the day comes.
3) 不会丢我老师的脸 ( shhh, some will know what I mean). I only have a few more days to prepare.
4) To see my idol’s live performance again!
5) Have an answer to what is troubling me now. It happened unexpectedly, and I dunno the reason behind and what it will lead to. Hopefully no one suffers & all will turn out well.
6) My friends will stop nagging me to get attached. Hahahaha.
7) Manage to keep my hair past shoulder length. No spilt ends please.
8) A smooth and blessed year in 2006. The same for my dear friends too.Hmm “looking forward to 2006” isn’t the correct way to describe my feelings now as I have some fears which I can’t explain.
Hmm shall I put it as :
2006 is like a box of jigsaw puzzle pieces. I can see pieces of puzzle but I dunno how the picture will turn out in the end until I slowly put together the jigsaw puzzle pieces by pieces as each day passes by.
365 片拼块所组成的拼图会是什么样的画, 那就等我一年后再揭晓吧!
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