Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Roller coaster ride on Tue
It’s hell roller coaster ride of emotions today. If not that I am in a better mood at some pt, I think I will really lash out at people.
Supposed to have dinner appt tonight, hence since I was in a carefree mood this morn, dressed up 美美。And in the afternoon, dinner was cancelled. Perhaps due to last minute of events. Manage to see a live performance of 《眼底星空》。I love that song!Then something happened which made me pissed off with some people. Dun like it when they twisted words, dun like it when they pretend nothing happened. Dun like it when you were so busy yet they still bother you.
And u know when yr mood start to darken and then you encounter more upsets. Was already trying to avoid a quarrel but then the other party start to get defensive and sarcastic. Was pointed out that I am assuming things and yet without checking on facts, the same party started to assume I was targeting at her/him (I dun wanna reveal who) when I wrote on my msn “tired of people twisting my words”, and then he/she start to change his/her nic to “tired of people assuming things they tot I would do.”
Even when I had mention it was meant for someone else, then came the reply “ it was right after we argue abt… so what can I say… tat’s what I feel… u assume that I assume…”
At some pt, radio was airing Yuan Zou Gao fei, and I was quite relief to hear that. Thinking I could hear it while doing my work. At least it’ll make me feel better. But then kanna disturb by people again.
I was trying to keep my cool when I saw words such as “go and feel tat” “ Be it then”, and I have to say I am no angel. I blurted out “ wa lao, yr tone”. Went offline at some point to control myself cos with one party already so defensive, no pt being 硬碰硬。
Was putting myself in other’s shoes and think abt how the other party might misunderstand upon seeing me go offline so I went online again to face the music. After his/her long comments, I already did my best to lighten the mood by commenting “ ren4 xing4. Haha”. But till there was more to come.
In the end, I chose to remain silent and get back to my work.
I was thinking at some pt: why do I care so much abt how others feel.
However, if u totally heck care what people think you u, I think u’ll get too stubborn in a way.
“不在乎”跟“任性”只是一线之差，是吗？Someone was telling me that sometimes I need not be 太好，but I thought I should also learn to 包容, learn to 让步。Contradicting…
After lunch, was busy sorting out work.
Got irritated when people sitting ard me turn a deaf ear to the door bells….
Mood was lifted upon …… (haha tat will be in my secret blog.).Manage to catch the MV of 《眼底星空》。I love that song! Some scenes of the MV reminds me of Armageddon . Haha.
And guess what, soon after mentioning abt the MV to Mrs Wong, Fm 933 aired that song !I am melting…..
Going to have tau-huay talk with 10-YF (10 Yr Friend. Oh same initials too), Thanks gal for yr time.
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